OH MY GOODNESS I HAVE NOT BLOGGED SINCE AUGUST
i think i will give this blog up
my other blog is way more successful

so i go home in 2 months and 2 weeks
i am amping for summer
still trying my hardest to loose weight haha
and grow my hair long
credit cards are being threatened to be cancelled if my spending habits dont subside

its coming into winter time
its cold wet and depressing
50 more days of class until i am finished forever

well i will leave this blog for now
and possibly forever
it wasnt for me
i would always forget about it
my new blog is

staceyaroha@tumblr.com
follow me there if you want

by (:

mosquitos in my room
and im sleeping naked
lets see what tomorrow will bring

im in a bad spot at the moment
im sorry i have not written recently
i dont know where i am
i feel like im slipping back into square one
all my hard work
i feel as though no one gets me
i cant explain it to them
im up and down im all over the show
i think i know why
and i hate it;i hate the way it makes me feel
i hate everything about it
i hate what its doing to me
its making me slip away
is hard to find myself; in a way i want to be like this because its easier
its easier to deal with
then my problem at hand
i hate it; i gave it a go its got to me
now i want to quit

yeah im being slack on this
i have discovered my tumblr site
and its been keeping me pre occupied
terrible i know

right we partied to hard on saurday night i think
well i was fine
my friend not so much;poor girl got us kicked out of the bar because she threw up
so i had to sober up pretty fast
i carried her to the station feeding her
two bottles of water on the way
and mcdonalds
she cont. to vomit though

i thought i was responsible usually im not
so i looked after her
took her in a taxi home

got myself home eventually
minus alot of money and phone
good night

unfortunatley im now limiting my choices of alcoholic bevearges i can drink
jager is out
vodka is out
beer is out
and anything with mint is out
so with little selection my nights out should be sober

also the weight loss issue still battles on
4kgs will be gone by the end of this month
you can be sure of that

well all school starts again wednesday dreading that
dreading that big time

follow me on tumblr please heres the link
dont procrastinate
http://staceyaroha.tumblr.com/

love stace

i feel theres something about me you should all know

when i get nervous or anxious my teeth hurt
and they have been hurting for one whole day now
so why am i nervous and anxious
i cant figure it out

6 months

its been requested i update my blog
in twelve minutes i will have 6 months of exchange left
happiness yes
other emotions idk
its a weird feeling
has time gone fast, again i dont know
have i enjoyed this half year so far
hell yeah
i have had expreiences none of you out there will ever have
do i look forward to going home
yes
but that does not mean i do not like it here
i simply means i look forward to going home
so dont read that and get the wrong idea

so a lot can happen in 6 months right
yea it really can

the future

the future is really scary
i have to decide basically by the end of the week
what courses to take at university when i go home
IF
that is by the end of the week that i actually decide i want to go
i dont want to choose what i have to do for the rest of my life now
its way hard

ugggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggh

ha

laughing to myself about how self absorbed some people are
really
do you think you are that great
seriously
get off your High horse
i am not the only person who see's you for
who you really are
oh and by the way;- GROW UP
its about time don't you think

having a talk about change and life
making me realise some things
one year really can change a person
six months has already

final goodbye

the hardest thing today was knowing this was the last day i was spending with him
the hardest part was letting go and walking away
but it is not goodbye forever its goodbye and see you soon
i hope